hooobajube

I lost the baby, i had a miscarrage last week and to make things worse my disabled son passed away this morning. I don't know what to say or do.. i feel like a huge chunk of me is totally missing.. and i don't know how i am still breathing! anyway

RIP Brayden Asher Wood.
06/30/04-11/19/09
You will be very missed.

I still have no internet but i found out about 3 days ago that I am pregnant.. i missed my period by about 2 weeks.. so i have an appointment witht he dr in a couple weeks and we will find out for sure but I feel it..

anywho..

luv you all

i know i haven't updated in ages but its because i am with out a computer right now and i am updating at 11:00 at night at work and i have to get out of here so i can go home and sleep...

lets see i have been working 2 jobs and i just moved in to a house.. and am planing on expanding my family.. there you go thats the best you get for now and will try and update again soon..

luv u all
hooobajube

If there is one person or more on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal
*coughmisticough*

DANA SCULLY!!!!!!!

Is it wrong to be happy that a woman that put all of her energy in to trying to distroy MY marriage is getting a divorce herself now.. I think its karma

Opinions?.. yes!please!

The first TEN people to comment in this post get to request a drabble/ficlet of any Harry Potter pairing or character* and a prompt. In return, those ten people have to post this in their journals, regardless of their ability level.

* I won't write cross-gen, incest, or anything involving heavy kinks.

Your Word is "Love"

You see life as possibility to form deep connections with a few people. Relationships are the center of your world, and you always take time to bond with those you love. You are caring and giving. You enjoy helping those you love. And when it comes to romantic love, you feel passionately ... even in a very long term relationship.

Hey guys... this is the first video for my friends band.. I really need to share it. All of the boys are great and the guy in the video is friggin awesome to.. Please please check it out and let me know what you think.. Personally I love it but I am a twizzle bit biased LOL

Okay this is hilarious... first thought in my mind was oh my god its rosie.. hermione and rons daughter.. lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! might be that i have been up all night but still i found it friggin amuzing


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So I am still here 10 years later. I am alive unlike most of my friends, either by their own hand or by some other means. I feel heavier this year for some reason. My heart is more weighed down and I really find my self truely and honestly angry. Really really angry. I know I shouldn't have watched the news coverage on it but I had to. I just need to watch it. What makes me angry the most is that the reporters seemed to be trying to get all of the familys and everyone they interviewed to try and say how angry they were or who they blamed and just trying to drag up so much more shit than need be. That was just the icecream on my very livid sundae.

The special piss you off more chocolate sauce was this new book published by some psycologist that thinks he knows so much about everything related to the shooting including Eric and Dylan. He says that they were not outcasts and that they were actually part of the poplular crowd. Now if that were true then I was the friggin captian of the cheerleading squad. My ass. This man thinks oh well its 10 years later what would it hurt to tell everyone what they thought they knew was a lie and oh yeah they will believe me because I have some degree I obviously got out of a fucking crackerjack box.

Moving on from the anger. I do look back today and remember. I remember all the hurt and all the emotions that I went through today. I remember making my self sick with worry over friends and teachers. I remember going to clement park in the days after to be with friends and remember. I remember how it seemed surreal and how it was like watching my life on a movie screen. I remember all my friends that were scared, physicaly and emotionally. I remember everyone lost and I will never forget what happend and I will pass it on to my children.

I took these pictures from right in front of my house like 10 mins ago.. it is still snowing.. its hard to belive that my birthday is in 10 days and there is like a foot of snow on the ground.. they are expecting about 1 to 8 inches more by this afternoon. Well this is spring in colorado.












Honestly I did take them a few mins ago.. the news says today the high is 44 degrees and by monday it will be 68 degrees and by wednesday it should be almost 80 degrees for a high.

Hope you all have a warmer day than me!!!

thats a toss up between white chocolate hollow bunnies or the enormous candy cane sticks.. not the ones like hooks but the big, if i beat you in the head i would give you a concussion, sticks

meme stolded from country_lady

1.I've come to realize that my hair...gets along very well with my roots
2.I've come to realize that my legs...are really scared up.. stupid childhood
3.I've come to realize that my job...is lacking, because i don't have one
4.I've come to realize that when I'm alone...I am happier
5.I've come to realize that I need...to get a tooth pulled.
6.I've come to realize that I hate...a lot about people that are shallow and don't know how to find who they are.
7.I've come to realize that I hate it when...I try to go have fun but only realize I amgetting olderand i don't like it.
8.I've come to realize that if I'm drunk...I don't hold my tounge and tell the truth even if i don't want to
9.I've come to realize that money...is something i need very very badly right now like 6000 dollars wirth
10.I've come to realize that people...are mostly shallow and heartless and selfish and rude and cruel and just plain pathetic
11.I've come to realize that family...is the only thing i have and am greatful for
12.I've come to realize that my significant other...is my other half and i love him very much for it
13.I've come to realize that my mom...is a self centered bitch that, even though it sounds bad, should never have had me. She is not one for haveing kids..(my mother inlaw is a diffrent subject i love her with all my heart and she is one of the most beautiful women that i know)
14.I've come to realize that my cell Phone...is hot...*ummmmm* gerard way
15.I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning...I had very nice yet confuzing dreams. thank god no more nightmares.. they have bugged me lately
16.I've come to realize last night before I went to sleep...my husband half asleep can be a confuseing asshole lol
17.I've come to realize right now I am thinking about...how good dinner smells
18.I've come to realize that when I get on MySpace...I still am friends with people I should have deleted a long time ago... maybe i will go do that now
19.I've come to realize that today...was very productive and I got quite a bit done
20.I've come to realize that tonight...I saw the worst movie ever.. not as bad as nacho libre but pretty damn close... and that I will more than likely beg hubby to watch sailor moon with me for a bit
21.I've come to realize that tomorrow...will be too too busy and i might just end up fighting with the hubster
22.I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to respond...I don't know but I would really like to see what misti has to say
23.I've come to realize that life...is not worth living with out my family.
24.I've come to realize that my friends...are good to have but shouldn't be my world
25.I've come to realize this last year...was just a big fat lie that i should have avoided
26.I've come to realize that...i am me and no one else and I shouldn't try to be someone else to make myself or them happy.
27.I've come to realize that even if it kills me...I will have a good birthday this year..

So I recently got netflix and decided to rent mummy 3. Lets just say being a fan of mummy 1 and 2 I shouldn't have seen this one at all. I am only 22 minutes in to it and I am so pissed off its not even funny. In my opinion if you couldn't get rachel weis you shouldn't have even done the damn movie. put it off or rewrite it. shit. I heard that there is one of two reasons why she didn't do it. was that she didn't want to be away from her son for 5 months or that she didn't want to play the mother of a 21 year old son. Either way come on there are ways of keeping her on. shit shit shit. I hate this new woman she doesn't even have the same kind of chemestry like rachel did. bluch!!!! ugh.. its just pissing me off.. and didn't alex, ricks son have a brittish accent in number 2... now he is all american.. ugh.. ugh ugh.. what the hell..................................... okay i am just gonna try and tough it thru but fuck.. this is honestly the biggest mistake they could have ever made.. fuck i hate that woman.. any way... back to watching it.. thanks for my dummy rambleing

I don't know how many of you if any are in the denver or colorado area but my friends band is hosting a concert tomarrow and they want me to give out tickets.. well here is your free ticket print it out as many times as you want.. bring the whole family LOL



If you don't come oh well if you can't attend still check them out on myspace..

www.myspace.com/skyfox

they just got signed and they are putting out a record soon..

thanks for reading

hooobajube

southpark episode one cartman gets an anal probe.. chef tells him he has a big hoobajube up his butt.. so there you go I am cartmans anal probe LOL

Alright here is the update.. man I have so much right now..

first and foremost the easiest part I might have a job because I had a phone interview with tmobile today and it went really nice.. I think that it is possable that I will be getting the job. *Crosses fingers*

Then I went and visited my mother inlaw from last wednesday to this past monday. It was wonderful I love her so much.. Hell I love her more than my own mother and thats kinda sad LOL! Anyway I can't think of a more beautiful or wonderful woman in the world, with all she does for others she deserves to be happy and enjoy the rest of her life in peace.

She is the main part of my news that makes me so flippin happy its not even funny.

Let me give you the back story on my situation and why I am freaking the hell out!!! LOL. Okay I have known my husband for a little over eight years now and I have known my mother inlaw and father inlaw the entire time. Now if there were two people that were made for eachother more than them I would love to meet them and shake their hands lol. Okay well they have been divorced since my husband was around 6 to 8 years old. He is now 28. LOL they didn't talk untill about 8 years ago when my stepson was murdered. Now this was when my little personal private ship. LOL I have always looked at them like my personal real life Harry and Hermione. They are like peanut butter and jelly, ham and cheese, rice crispys and marshmellows.

Now my first little bug to this was back 8 years ago when she had come out for the funeral and we all went out to dinner. the table set was me with my husband and his mom on one side. my hubbys dad next to his mom at the head of the table. his current wife and my hubbys litter brothers next to her and my hubbys little sister at the other end. Well we went to the macironi grill and some lady came and sang a song about lost loves and she was singing to my hubbys mom and dad, not dad and step mom!!!!!

holy crap I tell you they are awesome. Well my mother inlaw has been going through some serious crap lately with her husband. he is an alcoholic and doesn't give 2 shits about anything at all. My mother inlaw lost her house, her car, tons of her posessions and she has to file banrupcy because of him. He has wrecked his car with their son in the car and he also locked one of my hubbys little brothers in the garage with the car running and went inside and passed out. Then left my hubby and his brother at the bowling ally for like 3 hours.

Well this past year after 3 years of trying to fix things with him even knowing that is not where her heart is, she finally told him it was over. Now don't jump the gun and think wooo she is doing this cuz her ex is in the picture. No! That would be a very very very wrong usumption. My mother inlaw called my hubby and told him what was going on. Of corse him being the wonderful son he is he actually sat on the phone with her for about 2 hours just talking to her. Now a couple days later my hubby talked to his dad and let him know what was going on. Now this is where the friggin cuteness comes up. They hadn't talked since that time 8 years ago. They have chatted and you know done the typical ex talk you know. So my hubbys dad lets him know that if his mom needs anything to let him know.

So he does and then he gives her his dads number and they have basically been on the phone with eachother almost every night or day since then and that has been about 2 months. LOL. the greatest part is that my hubbys dad is moving out here and so is his mom. They are now talking about getting back together!!!!! They have talked extensively and are regretting leaving eachother in the first place. now when they married they were 19 and 20 and divorced about 6 years later. This is the weird part that is basically when me and my hubby started having a few issues.. and i don't think we could make it through them with out either his mom or his dad. What caused the divorce was the typical young people he said she said crap. and on neither end it was true.

So long story short they are going to get everything in order to be back with their true loves!!!

Man this makes me happy.. If I lost any of you I am sorry... feel free to ask me any questions.. I just had to get it off my chest

LOL as I told my mother inlaw tonight... "Fuck Harry Potter, I got my real life Harry/Hermione" She laughed.. She knows about that I told her that they are my real life hhr.

Okay thanks for reading
huggles
Hooobajube

I will update more tomarrow but I am alive and I have tons of news to share!!!!